March - Basement
We made plans I thought we’d keep.
The dates still in my diary.
No more waiting for me.
No more waiting for you.
Noctilucas scintillans- a bioluminescent dinoflagellate also called the sea sparkle.
Cupid’s Curse | Follow Lucie Shearer’s Illustration Tumblr
It turns out procrastination is not typically a function of laziness, apathy or work ethic as it is often regarded to be. It’s a neurotic self-defense behavior that develops to protect a person’s sense of self-worth.
You see, procrastinators tend to be people who have, for whatever reason, developed to perceive an unusually strong association between their performance and their value as a person. This makes failure or criticism disproportionately painful, which leads naturally to hesitancy when it comes to the prospect of doing anything that reflects their ability — which is pretty much everything.
But in real life, you can’t avoid doing things. We have to earn a living, do our taxes, have difficult conversations sometimes. Human life requires confronting uncertainty and risk, so pressure mounts. Procrastination gives a person a temporary hit of relief from this pressure of “having to do” things, which is a self-rewarding behavior. So it continues and becomes the normal way to respond to these pressures.
Particularly prone to serious procrastination problems are children who grew up with unusually high expectations placed on them. Their older siblings may have been high achievers, leaving big shoes to fill, or their parents may have had neurotic and inhuman expectations of their own, or else they exhibited exceptional talents early on, and thereafter “average” performances were met with concern and suspicion from parents and teachers.
9 am: raining
10 am: snowing
1:45 pm: sunny, blue skies
it is only the second day of the second week of this quarter and I’m already staying up past 12am to do homework and study…
I really hope this evening is not indicative of what the rest of the quarter is going to be like…
more watercolor (but mostly pen this time) by yours truly
It’s been an Alkaline Trio kind of week
apple clafouti (while making art)
it’s part pie, part cake; wholly delicious